As I grew up my parents made the effort to direct me towards a Catholic life. I was baptized, I made my communion, and I made my confirmation. I attended church every Sunday and went to confession as needed. I hoped that by following God and I would go to heaven because as a child I visualized heaven as being a beautiful and painless place. I wanted to strive for a pleasant life after death.
When I got to the high school level my views started changed. I started to get more into science and I questioned if our world was created not by God, but by one of the scientific theories stated in my textbook. To add to my confusion my grandfather told me he did not believe in an afterlife; when you died that was it. My grandfather has always been a wise man, and I looked up to him. His words always left an impact on me.
Another significant, yet unfortunate event left me lost as well. My best friend passed away and I could not understand how God could take someone so special away. I stopped attending church and I stopped believing because I was so angry. I was in denial for a long time, I could not find anything to take away the pain of losing my best friend, someone I absolutely loved and adored.
When I could not figure out how to let go of all of the anger and hurt, I realized maybe it was because I lost faith in God to help me through those hard times. I decided I needed to instill my trust in God again. I started attending church again and I found myself emerging from that dark place and finding peace with the loss of my friend.
I know one day I will see her again. I know where she will be too… in heaven. I believe that if I live a life with morals and values I will get there. On Final Judgment Day when God judges us for both the good deeds we have done and the sins we have committed, I believe that my good will outweigh the bad. I believe I will go to heaven and reunite with my best friend. I am thankful my parents took the time to direct me towards a Catholic lifestyle because I think everyone needs something or someone to believe in.